it's end...

stupid shaher! didi... tiga kali aku call kau.. and kak tina answered it.. kali ketiga it's dissapointed me., when kak tina said didi tk ada kt rumah.. dia pergi ke rumah masyitah.. but at the same time i can heard your voice.. im so like.... my tears are ready to fall.. im waiting you on this monday.. i just wanna you read my bbm.. and think about it.. but you never read.. im scared to wait this monday... if benar kau sgt mrhkan aku n sgt benar benci aku.. let me ready to losing you with delete me from bbm, change your twitcon, delte all our picture.. dan aku akan tetap memerhatikan kau sehingga aku penat dgn memerhatikan kau. im done sending you a msg.. and aku fikir kau betul2 busy.. aku tk mampu nk lari dri bertemu dgn kau.. tp aku akn cuba sedaya upaya untk lari dari kau.. aku masih kuat. radiation akn membantu membunuh cell ni dari merebak.. but today was my first time and last time doing radiation.. im not gonna doing a surgery. or expensive treatment as chemotraphy. i want you as my bestfriend., hug me, care about me..  it's good theraphy for me. sorry grammar terabur.. semua dtg dri hati tk sempat nk memikir betul ke tidak grammar nya.. shaher! if didi tk boleh terima kau semula, move on jelahhhh.. oii bangang! kau tk akn move on dgn senang lah.. kau lupa ke? eh! apahal aku makin jd gila ni! haha... jd gila pun tk pelahhh.. gila gila. shaher gila... didi... aku perlukan kau.. aku tahu bkn senang nk terima apa yg aku dah buat pada kau.. tp aku sgt syg kan kau... aku perlukan kau. dear my blog... im not gonna update my blog if i totally losing her in my life.. but if i update my blog it's mean back normal as usual.. pray for me.. or aku akn hidup dlm bayangan silam.. take care didi...